“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling,…

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 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. 6 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a…

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WHY is it so hard for me to behave. DAMN!!! I'm in trouble once again. Over something that was so simple a fleeting conversation an insignificant part of any ordinary day....or so I thought. After my last punishment I was hoping not to be in this position for quite a while. I get physically ill, when I know I've made HIM unhappy and been disobedient



And right now as I'm sitting here waiting for him to come back my stomach is doing something real, real special.....Its starting to get… Continue