My Greatest Enemy

[Q tha ish]

My Greatest Enemy

Everything happens for a reason and if I miss my chance to say three words to a missed opportunity then my soul lives this earth life alone. Which is not long, after that I will be happy for once, if not in this life then the next life I pass on to will be mine forever in happiness...

My greatest enemy is myself it always has been and always will be...

My heart has scars of lost love, pain from enduring positive life partners that were not meant to be for me, and aches from undeserving Quanna love that bring the tears streaming down my face....

Masochistic I must be to always expose my heart like this when my soul whispers to me that you are a loving soul...

Over and over I keep repeating this moment in my life like the pendulum strokes on life's clock... back and forth never stopping.

I have learned to deal with this pain yet will always walk this life in beauty... in peace, in harmony and in balance for those I choose to expose myself to.

Its my burden to carry and carry it I have. And will continue to do so. Freedom from this enduring pain in my heart is but only a myth, like the stories many grandparents tell the children of hope and curiosity to rest their minds.

I am strong, when I am at my weakest.
I am strong, when I feel like quitting.
I am strong, when all is lost and I have nothing left to give.
I am strong, when my thoughts remain positive despite my circumstances.
I am strong because I have to be with or without a life partner.

Everything happens for a reason, this is my burden. My greatest enemy is myself it always has been and always will be...